Monthly Archives: May 2009

Old Father Time

Here I am sitting at my PC and suddenly realised I hadn’t put anything on the blog for ages and when I checked it is in fact 13 days.  Wow doesn’t time fly?  This has got me thinking how we respond to time and deal with it passing.

I am reading a wonderful book at the moment by Joan Parisi Wilcox.  She has spent much time with the Medicine men and women of the Andes.  There is a section in it which explains how to use a ‘mesa’ -a medicine bundle. A young Quero is talking about his mesa and how it connects him with Pachamamma-Mother Earth first then all the Apus -Nature Spirits- particularly the mountans.  He mentions Time and speaks of time as a Spirit to be honoured just like all the Spirits and how in our modern culture we abuse Time and give Time no honour and Respect.

That really got me thinking!  What a different attitude.  Suddenly I have been given an amazing gift.  I can now learn to treat Time with the same respect I give Mother Earth.  Somehow that is amazingly freeing.  No more pressure-just respect.  Taking my time has a whole new meaning.  Everything I do I can do with awareness.

In the West at New Year Old Father Time makes a brief appearance to be buried and forgotten until next year.  It feeels important now to start to understand and honour this Spirit.  Many of us have a feeling of time speeding up-now is our chance to directly communicate with Time to change our perception.

Grand Maya Itza Council

Here is an email I rec’d back in November and only just realised I could publish it on my blog.  It is fascinating and empowering and I ask you all to participate.  I have been ‘tuning in’ each Full moon and been doing a simple ceremony at home although when it comes to Stonehenge and Silbury I intend to go there in person.  I know many of you are familiar with many more sites in UK and suggest that you tune in to those you know too.  A brighter grid can’t be a bad thing!

Hello Everyone and blessings of bliss to you all,
This is an important message about the Mayan Calendar which I find to be accurate and on ‘schedule’. In my mind it is the only accurate gauge, ‘tool of truth’ humanity has for recording/describing activity both on Earth and the cosmos that I have seen. There is a lot of negative belief in it which is a mistaken western interpretation by ‘experts’ of left brained domination, about being ‘the end of life’ and such nonsense. Below is a message from the Maya themselves to correct this and to invite our participation in this correction if you so choose, because as one believes……
Blessings, Serena.
Please pass this on to those who may benefit.
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Message from Shoshanna, (Sharon Alder):

November, 2008

To the caring Women and Men of the World:

I have just returned from the Yucatan having spent 10 days there in ceremony
And classes. Below you will find a greeting and explanation from the Grand
Maya Itza Council regarding 2012. I agreed with Council members to do
Everything I can to get this word out to the World.
It is simply this:
1) Their calendars do not END in 2012 – soon after 2012 we, on planet earth,
Will experience the return to the astronomical configurations present when
One of the calendars was begun 26,000 years ago ……and we simply experience
That day and move on into an exciting new cycle…..of another 26,000
2) Others have mis-calculated dates, but the Grand Maya Itza Council do not
Want to point fingers. There is no healing in that.
3) The only way for Human Consciousness that has been pushed SO LOW is for
Those of a higher mind to do as they suggest, below – Concentrate with high
Intent on each of 52 sacred sites – designated below – and ask the caretakers of
Those sites to activate the positive energies available from each
Site……and by the end of 52 months – December 28, 2012, the entire planet will have
The sacred site grid re-activated and ‘alight’.

Someone said to me, “Gee, I wish ‘them’ luck!”
‘THEM’? ‘THEM’ is US! There is no difference between the souls of human
Beings except for the energies collected up through negative or positive Thinking…. …

We MUST counter-act the negativity surrounding December 21, 2012 – and
UNDO what has been cast upon humanity as a ‘truth’ when, indeed it is not!

We can all catch up with each other on the full moons!
In lak’ech,

THANK YOU for caring!  Together we can!)

~!~!~!~!~!~! ~!~!~!~!~ !~!~!~!~! ~

Grand Maya Itza Council Speaks About 2012

Merida, Yucatan , Mexico
November, 2008

“Cosmic Brothers and Sisters :

The GRAND MAYA ITZA COUNCIL feels proud to distribute this
List of sacred sites to all the Initiates and Workers of
Light from all around the world. These sites must be used to
Do the work of returning of the Great Spirit in order to
Prevent our mother Earth from the unfortunate events
Foreseen to happen in these years leading up to 2012.

We the MAYA ITZA people are very aware of the bad news and
Disasters that are going to occur in these years ‘of 2012’ as
Foreseen by many people. According to many of them, the
World will come to an end due to phenomena like the ones
Mentioned in the Apocalypse of the Christian Bible.

We the Mayans who have not been cultured by the Wes tern
Culture do not agree with all the negative things our sacred
Calendars have been involved in. That is the main reason why
We are distributing this list of sacred sites where we are
Planning to do our spiritual work.

Every Full Moon we are going to make a spiritual journey to
Every one of the sacred sites on the list, starting our
First ceremony on November 13, 2008, and continuing that way
Until carrying out the last ceremony on December 28, 2012,
Which is the actual date when our Sister and Mother Moon is
Going to perform the big change on the mankind’s Mentality.

In our next communication, (below), we are going to explain you how
The ancient Mayas used to make these spiritual journeys to
The ancient ceremonial centers in order to activate all the
Sacred sites from all around the world. This will be the
Best to contribute to the salvation of our Mother Earth as
Well as the sacred human race and all the living beings.”

New Cycle of Mayan Wisdom

Please pass this information onto all your contacts and Acquaintances

“Cosmic Brothers and Sisters:

I feel very grateful to our Mayan Creator Hunab K¢u for having let me
Reincarnate to gather again with my siblings of the Maya Itza Tradition. This way,
We will be able to get together as we used to do long time ago in these
Sacred lands where the cosmic wisdom of the Itza Light still reigns.

Every Full Moon we are going to gather together in spirit at the sites of
The list below so that our Sister Moon can remind us of the time when we
Stopped understanding her and the mankind got lost in the lunatic illusion we are
Living nowadays. This initiatic work will be done in 52 moon cycles and after
We complete the whole cycle we will be able to remember our cosmic past again.

The rituals of these spiritual journeys will be held in the following way:
The rituals and journeys will be held by *5 initiate people; then the sacred
Site where the ritual is going to be held must be selected and then 4 of the 5
people must be placed on the four cardinal directions, one on the east,
another one on the west, another one on the north and the other one on the south;
the fifth and last person must be lying face up with his or her head pointing
to the north.

The ritual is going to be held in a Full Moon night and will last a little
more than an hour. The 5 initiates could be male or female and must be adults.
They should also wear white clothes. When they do the ritual, their bodies
and spirits must be in complete harmony.

During the ceremony, both the ritual conductors as well as the whole
humankind will be asked to keep their minds clear so that our understanding ability
can be illumined and we can understand the wisdom of the universal

New Cycle of Mayan Wisdom

* Note: If you do not have a ‘group’ to perform the ceremonies, you may work
alone, or with one, two, three, four OR many more. The importance is the
‘intent’ of your meditation.

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No. 1 – 1 ANGKOR CAMBODIA November 13, 2008

No. 2 – 2 ASTRAKHAN RUSSIA December 12, 2008
No. 3 – 3 BASRA IRAQ January 11, 2009
No. 4 – 4 BLYTHE, CA USA February 9, 2009
No. 5 – 5 BUNDOOMA AUSTRALIA March 11, 2009
No. 6 – 6 CAHOKIA , IL USA April 9, 2009
No. 7 – 7 CARNAC FRANCE May 9, 2009
No. 8 – 8 COBA MEXICO June 7, 2009
No. 9 – 9 COPAN HONDURAS July 7, 2009
No. 10 – 10 CUNAGUA CUBA August 6, 2009
No. 11- 11 CHACO CANYON USA September 4, 2009
No. 12 – 12 CHICHEN ITZA MEXICO October 4, 2009
No. 13 – 13 DEBRECEN HUNGARY November 2, 2009
No. 1 – 14 ESFAHAN IRAN December 2, 2009
No. 2 – 15 GRAN PIRAMIDE EGYPT December 31, 2009 KEOPS
No. 3 – 16 GUAYAMA PUERTO RICO January 30, 2010
No. 4 – 17 HATOR DENDERA EGYPT February 28, 2010
No. 5 – 18 HELFRANTZKIRCH GERMANY March 30, 2010
No. 6 – 19 IZMIR TURKEY April 28, 2010
No. 7 – 20 JIBHAFANTA MONGOLIA May 27, 2010
No. 8 – 21 KALACMUL MEXICO June 26, 2010
No. 9 – 22 KRAPINA CROATIA July 26, 2010
No. 10 – 23 KURUMAN S. AFRICA August 24, 2010
No. 11 – 24 LATAKIA SYRIA September 23, 2010
No. 12 – 25 LHASA TIBET October 23, 2010
No. 13 – 26 LUBAANTUN BELIZE November 21, 2010
No.1 – 27 MACHU PICCHU PERU December 21, 2010
No. 2 – 28 MALAKAL SUDAN January 19, 2011
No. 3 – 29 MAORI NEW ZEALAND February 18, 2011
No. 4 -30 MEXIANA BRAZIL March 19, 2011
No. 5 – 31 MIXCO VIEJO GUATEMALA April 18, 2011
No. 6 – 32 MOUNDVILLE , AL USA May 17, 2011
No. 7 – 33 NAMPULA MOZAMBIQUE June 15, 2011
No. 8 – 34 OLLANTAYTAMBO PERU July 15, 2011
No. 9 – 35 PARANA ARGENTINA August 13, 2011
No. 10 – 36 PIRAMIDES DE SPAIN September 12, 2011 GUIMAR
No. 11 – 37 SERPENT MOUND USA October 12, 2011
No. 12 – 38 SILSBURY HILL ENGLAND November 10, 2011
No. 13 – 39 SIPAN PERU December 10, 2011
No. 1 – 40 STONEHENGE ENGLAND January 9, 2012
No. 2 – 41 SURAKARTA INDONESIA February 7, 2012
No. 3 – 42 TAJ MAHAL INDIA March 8, 2012
No. 4 – 43 TANGER ALGERIA April 6, 2012
No. 5 – 44 TAZUMAL EL SALVADOR May 6, 2012
No. 6 – 45 TEOTIHUACAN MEXICO June 4, 2012
No. 7 – 46 TIHUANAKU BOLIVIA July 3, 2012
No. 8 – 47 TIKAL GUATEMALA August 2, 2012
No. 9 – 48 TONGARIYAMA JAPAN August 31, 2012
No. 10 – 49 TUCUPITA VENEZUELA September 30, 2012
No. 11 – 50 UXMAL MEXICO October 29, 2012
No. 12 – 51 VAASA FINLAND November 28, 2012
No. 13 – 52 VIJAYANAGAR INDIA December 28, 2012
Blessings of Magic and Beauty.

Grandmothers Dawn Water Meditation

I received this email and decided to participate.

Hello All:
I just wanted to let you know about a special event idea that comes from a special Collaboration between  the Waitaha Grandmothers from the Aoteoroa (New Zealand) and Turtle Island, called the Pacific Circle of Prayer.  When I saw the Grandmother’s website, I thought you might be interested in participating to make it a “Worldwide Circle of Prayer”.   If you would like to participate and/or know of someone who would be interested, please share this with them…
Mother’s Day Special Invite for You
Date: 10th of May, 2009 (your time zone)
Time: Dawn (in your time zone)
Place: Any place where there is water, even if you are home with a bowl of water
Your Mission: At the crack of dawn, to please send out a prayer and feeling of unconditional love and healing to Mother Earth and to the world, while touching water
Can you imagine the amazing power wave we can all generate!  Who knows what may happen???
Thanks for your time!  Hope to “see” you on Mother’s Day!
Much Love

I woke up this morning at 4.30 and got up and began my morning routine of feeding the animals.  The dogs were a bit bleary eyed but managed to scoff their breakfast. I had decided to meditate in the garden under our old Ash tree.  I took a small pot from my altar and filled it with Spring Water from a Holy Well that  I had  bought had home with me last time I was at Cerne Abbas.

It was a glorious morning.  Even though the sun wasn’t up yet the birds were singing the Dawn Chorus.  Any twitcher worth their salt will tell you an English dawn chorus in May is the most sublime music you’ll hear in Nature anywhere.

Under the Ash Tree is where I have my Ancestors Altar.  Since I got the dogs I must admit I’ve had to limit the things I put on there as they find it irresistible to root around it, so now it is made up  mostly of stones.  I also have a small brazier and a circle of seating for small ceremonies.  I lit the brazier, called in the Spirits of Champlain’s Well and the Grandmothers and began to meditate.

I had my fingers touching the Sacred Well water  as I was meditating, using the Net of Light Meditation, I  somehow drifted away from that and into a lovely space of connection with the Spirit of the Spring.  I sent Her love and healing and to all the water Spirits in the World.  It was gentle and sweet.  I was aware of a wave of Healing passing over the Earth as at Dawn all over the Planet people  were tuning in and sending healing to Her too.

What a wonderful way to start the day

Human Touch Zero Gravity Massage Chair

While we were at the Grand Designs exhibition last week my husband fell in love ……with a massage chair.  He ordered one and it was delivered today!  I realise that in the scheme of things now I will definitly be second best as coming in from work he will be straight into the arms of his new delight…….as she gently kneads away the aches and pains of the day.

Meeting with the Goddess-A Mother’s Story

When the children were younger my husband got a job in Germany and as a family we all decided to take the plunge and move there together.  It was a difficult decision as we were so happy living where we were but we needed bread on the table so the choice was made.  Rupti found us a beautiful house, on a Lake in a small Franconian village called Weisendorf.  We rented our cottage out in Devon and left one cold December day.

We were welcomed into our new life and soon made friends.  I was very homesick though and missed the network of good friends and family I had at home.  The language was a barrier to begin with but pretty quickly managed to get myself understood at the shops , schools etc.  As everyone believes, we thought the children would settle very quickly but it became apparent that Fergus was having trouble.  He was being bullied at school and was generally an unhappy soul.  It took us a while to realise that he had hearing problems, which he had been able to deal with in England, but because of having to learn a new language, was unable to cope with anymore.  He simply couldn’t hear well enough to pick up new words.  He was also having difficulties with his sight which we soon sorted out by going to a good eye doctor.  We decided to take him and Cai out of the state education system and send them to a Montessori school where happily they both began to thrive.  Although by this point Fergus had decided he was not going to learn German and utterly refused to speak anything but English! Thankfully the school worked with this.

While this was happening Jago was at home with me and we would attend Kindergerchen (Playgroup) together a few mornings a week.  I still felt homesick and was struggling with it all generally.  Its so hard to feel safe as a Mother when you can’t really totally communicate with those who need to know what’s happening with your children and the problems with Fergus had really made me realise how far from home I was!

We bought a Camper Van and decided to go away for a week testing it out.  We jumped in and headed South. We were having a great time and eventually ended up in Switzerland, by this point we needed a supermarket visit.  There was a toy train inside by the tills where you put money in and the kids could have a ride.  While we were paying for the shopping the boys had a turn each on the train……..then it happened…..something that would change my life forever!

There was a loud scream and I looked up and saw Jago lying on the floor.  Cai came rushing over, very upset crying “Jago’s hurt himself!”.  Rupti and I ran over leaving the shopping and went to pick Jago up and comfort him.  Small boys often hurt themselves and this didn’t seem any different to any tumble.  The manager of the shop insisted on calling a Doctor who checked Jago over and pronounced him fine.  Jago was still very upset and I noticed that the floor was marble and had no rubber matting around it.  I made a mental note to complain about this later and went back to pay for the shopping.  We carried on our journey and that night arrived in Austria.  We ate and went to bed.  At about 2am Jago woke up screaming…I mean really screaming.  It was horrendous.  We were on a campsite-didn’t know where the phone was-didn’t know what to do.  Rupti left to find a phone and call an ambulance while I tried to calm Jago and the other boys who were really upset hearing Jago wailing.  After what seemed an eternity Rupti came back and said an ambulance was on its way.  The ambulance took us to a nearby clinic.  By the time we got there Jago had stopped crying and was very quiet.  I explained what had happened and they prodded and poked him and took him for an X-ray.  They checked for dilated pupils and other symptoms of head injury and once again pronounced him fit and sent us on our way with pain-killers for him.

We decided to go home as we’d been so rattled by the experience the thought of holidays just wasn’t right anymore.  It was a long drive.  I sat in the back with Jago on my lap and for the first time in my life since I was a child I started to pray.  I looked out of the van window at the sky and thought of God.  The God of Judgement, God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit……but where was God the Mother?  It was Her that I needed…she would understand.  So I called Her and I prayed that Jago would be alright.  My instinct told me that he was far from alright but now 2 Doctors had told me he was fine and to stop worrying.  So again I prayed…”Let Jago be ok…don’t let him die……”

I was so upset that I insisted we stop and find another hospital.  By this time my husband was beginning to wonder if I’d lost the plot but we stopped and saw another Doctor who did the same checks, asked the same questions and once again sent us one our way with painkillers.

Finally we arrived home late at night and all went to bed.  Jago seemed to be peaceful so once again with a prayer in my heart I went to bed.  In the morning I went to see Jago and still my heart was full of worry.  He wasn’t right.  I couldn’t say what wasn’t right but he wasn’t right.  I woke my husband up and insisted once again we go and find a Doctor.  It was a Saturday morning and the nearest Doctor open was a half hour drive away so once more we all piled into the van and headed towards a surgery.  This time it was a woman Doctor-she did all the same tests and came to the same conclusion as the others- a bit of concussion perhaps but nothing to worry about.  At this point I just broke down.  I couldn’t take the worry anymore.  She looked at my husband in a sympathetic way and suggested for my sake to take Jago to the Emergency Clinic in Erlangen to put my mind at rest!

Arriving at the hospital I carried Jago in.  It was now 4 days since he fell.  I went to reception and explained what had happened.  The duty Doctor came out did the usual tests and once again came to the conclusion that Jago was fine.  However as a precaution they would keep Jago in for 24 hours to observe him. Still they made me feel like I was an hysterical woman making a fuss out of nothing.

Finally we got to the children’s ward and were met by a very young doctor.  It was his first week and he was obviously nervous.  Again he performed all the tests and found nothing.  He looked me in the eye and asked. “Are you worried?” I broke down and sobbed  “There is something wrong with him.  I know it!” “Well I am new to this” he says “I am going to trust your instinct.  I’ll arrange a scan.”  He called downstairs and a scan was organised.  I went down with Rupti and Jago.  Rupti went into the control room and I stayed with Jago in the scanner room. It was a terrifying machine for a little boy so as he lay there I started to tell him a story.  I watched the faces in the other room through the glass and as the scanner moved over my son’s head  I could see their expressions changing from good humour to anxiety to panic.  Rupti came into the room in a hurry and took my hand. “Jago has a massive brain clot and needs and emergency operation.  If the clot ruptures  he’ll die!”

Below is a copy of the scan taken.  As you can see on the right hand side is a large oval shaded area.  That is the haematoma.


Suddenly all hell broke lose.  There were Doctors and nurses running all over the place.  Jago was put back on his trolley and was pushed at great speed out of the scanner room and down a long corridor.  I had to take my shoes off to keep up-they were running so fast.  As we got to the operating theatre forms were thrust into my hand to sign-I scribbled my signature, gave Jago a kiss and he disappeared through the double doors. A neuro-surgeon had been called and he came to talk to us while Jago was being prepared. He said ” Your son is dangerously ill.  The heamatoma could burst at any minute. Its a miracle he is still alive.  The haematoma is so large it is giving him brain displacement.  We are going to have to remove the paretal bone in his skull to scrape it out.  You must be prepared for the worst, he has a slim chance of survival and if he does survive there is a very strong possiblity of severe brain damage and epilepsy!

There were the words any Parent never would like to hear.  My world collapsed in grief and fear.  My beautiful boy who made me sing was dying and I couldn’t do anything.  The Doctor said the operation would take a couple of hours and they would let us know as soon as there was any news Then came the longest 2 hours of my life.  My husband and I went outside and walked around in a daze.  We found a chapel but it was closed.  So we both stood by the door and rested our heads against it and began to pray in earnest.  I opened my heart to God the Mother.  I shared the deep anguish I was feeling,  I asked for Her help and comfort, I asked that Jago be given the chance of Life, I prayed that all would be well.  The 2 hours stretched to 3 then 4….still no news….finally 4 and a half hours later we got word that the operation was over and he was still alive but he was in intensive care.  My husband immediately went to see him and soon after I did.  It was a shock..his little body was twitching as he was begining to regain consciousness….there were tubes coming out of his skull, nose, arms.  He looked so helpless like a new born babe or an ancient old man.  Then he open his eyes and as I gazed into them I knew he was ok.  Jago was still there!  I sobbed and sobbed in relief.  The neuro-surgeon came over to us and said. “It was a much more difficult operation than we’d expected.  Some of the haematoma had hardened and was difficult to remove.  He is an amazing little boy, I have never seen anything like it before.  He has such a strong constitution that his body compensated for all the pressure the haematoma was causing and he showed no classical symptoms at all of head injury.   It really is remarkable as he could have died at any point from the moment he hit his head.  To survive shows a massive will to live.”  He then turned to me and said ” This is a teaching hospital and I would like to ask your permission  to use Jago’s case for the students.  Jago has given us a really clear message, that no matter what we think as professional Doctors, no matter how sure we are that everything is OK we MUST listen to the Mother.  If she says something is wrong we MUST trust this!”

I went outside and looked up at the night sky.  I held my arms up and opened my heart.  There were no words only an enormous out pouring of gratefulness and love and as I stood there I was almost swept away by wave of love like I had never felt before…..immense and beautiful….timeless and healing……Mother to Mother……….I was held in Her arms and cradled like a child…..Her child……Her children………….That moment changed me.

I stayed with Jago in the hospital for 3 weeks.  He slept on top of me as I held him close every second. Because of the tubes he lay on his back on my body  and he called this a ‘proper cuddle’,  anytime later on in his childhood, if he was feeling at all unhappy or insecure he would ask for a proper cuddle and we would lie together.  Once again I sang to him.  He had many tests over the time we were in the hospital and remarkably he had no long term effects from the injury.  No brain damage and no epilepsy………Miracle…..Her Miracle.

Grand Designs Exhibition-A different Way to Spend Beltane

Yesterday I spent an interesting day up in London visiting the Grand Designs Exhibition at the ExCel Cente in London’s dockland. A bit of a different way to spend Beltane!  However this was all about new beginnings as we are researching eco-housing that hopefully, in the not too distant future we will be able to build and live in.

I had a smooth trip up on the train and found the centre was well serviced by tube and the DLR.  I felt a bit like a country bumkin-wide eyed at all the impressive buildings in Docklands and all the people.

The venue was well sited and ventillated so even though it was a warm day it still felt cool and comfortable inside despite the numbers of people.  The exhibition was separated in themed areas:  Garden, Interiors, Self Build….but small enough so that you could see everything in a day easily with time to stop and try out wonderful zero gravity massage chairs and drink tea! There were seminars on different aspects of designing your own home and help on hand from Architects and building companies all vying for your trade.

I got some great ideas of things to do on our house.  I was very excited by the Eco Pod and Land Ark designed and marketed by Zed who are a trail-blazing ethically motivated company

I saw folks weaving willow hurdles and making straw bale walls using cob.  Carpenters making timber frames for traditional buildings, Stone Masons carving exquisite designs as well as 21st century audio and video equipment and plush interiors.  A thoroughly enjoyable day.

My husband manged to get there for the last couple of hours and immediately found the massage chair and spent at least an hour sampling the delights of being stretched gently and pumelled and kneaded before gettin out his card and buying one there and then.  Guess we’ll have to draw lots on who gets to sit in it!!